So, my first blog post on my new blog. Pretty daunting.
I don’t quite know why I’ve made this blog. Well, that’s not strictly true; I’ve created it because I promised myself I would. I guess I needed some sort of creative outlet, some way of getting things off my chest and out of my head. I’m always so deep inside my own mind half the time, it’s almost as if I live there rather than in the actual, physical world. Sometimes the world around me feels as though it isn’t real, like I distrust its tangibility, like I’m stuck in somebody else’s dream, or perhaps my own. I swear if someone cracked open my skull they’d just find a much smaller version of me rocking backwards and forwards, most likely listening to some Elliott Smith song on repeat.
Of course, I don’t actually think this. I’m not crazy. At least I hope not.
So I guess what I really meant to say is not that I don’t know why I’ve made this blog, I mean, the name itself is pretty self-explanatory – I want to write about food and films and share things I’ve been thinking about. What I meant to say is that I don’t entirely know what I’m meant to, or what I will gain from having a blog. I think it will have some effect. I want it to. Maybe it will improve my mental health. Maybe it will make me a more proactive person. Maybe, even, a more confident person (although that’s wishful thinking). Maybe the process of writing for a blog will help me to be less afraid of writing in general, and I’ll finally finish some of the screenplays and stories I neglected.
Either way, whoever’s reading this (probably just me, let’s be srs) should look forward to many future incoherent ramblings of an unstable 20-year-old student with a permanent identity crisis, and that should be fun! Stay tuned!
I’m going to drink some ginger green tea now.