From early January to early February, I managed to go 30 days without eating gluten and, after feeling a lot less groggy and bloated, confirmed that I definitely have some sort of intolerance to it, which is very unfortunate as gluten-free spaghetti just doesn’t hit the spot quite as much.
I love 30 day challenges; often admittedly more the idea of them considering how weak-willed and impatient I am, but there is something about turning a potential new habit into a challenge that strongly appeals to me. With my chronic lack of motivation, ‘challenges’ do in some small way counteract that, which is funny because it’s technically no different than simply deciding to start practising something on a daily basis. I think it’s the mental and verbal acknowledgment of labelling it a ‘challenge’ that re-emerges some of my sunken determination; all of a sudden I have a goal to achieve and something to prove.
Henceforth, starting tomorrow (1st May), I am going to attempt to do 30 days of meditation. I’ve read and heard about the benefits of meditation countless times over the past 3 or 4 years, but whenever I’ve started meditating I’ve never had the motivation to keep up the habit for more than 5 days at a time. And the annoying thing is that I know it can be extremely beneficial – I really do feel better once I’ve meditated for 15 or so minutes. There’s something very calming and grounding about it. As someone who has always struggled with overthinking and being ‘in my head’ too much, I feel quite passionately about implementing this habit into my life once and for all.
The only guidelines are that I must meditate twice a day for 10-20 minutes each, once within an hour of waking up and again soon before I go to bed. I’ll be lenient about the time, and if I only manage to meditate once on a given day that will still count but for the most part I’d like to do stick to those guidelines. The only way I’ll be disappointed in myself is if I don’t even make it to 15 days; I’d like to believe I have enough stamina to do that at least. My goal of course is to do the full 30 days.
I don’t expect to come out of this challenge feeling like the Dalai Lama or pledging a vow of silence and celibacy, I just want to learn how to be more ‘present’ and less inclined to feel mentally overwhelmed. Most of all, I hope at the end of these 30 days to have a calmer, quieter, more serene mind, or to have formed the ability to get out of my mind completely when necessary. If that doesn’t happen, at least I will have tried and I’ll know then that meditation isn’t for me. But to be honest, I think, knowing the type of person I am, I can gain a lot from this experience.